Chapter 2 - What Next

Warm… Comfortably Warm. It felt like I was being cradled in my mother's arms and she was cooing me to sleep or… just cooing me, I guess? "Hmmm Hmm" "Hmmm Hmm" I could feel the cooing feeling like it was realistically being sung. "Hmmm Hmm" "Hmmm Hmm" Again, it felt like a beautiful tone was drifting me too a dream far, far away. "Hmmm Hmm" "Hmmm Hmm" … Is it just me or... Is this shit happening? I could feel my body slightly moving, and something warm was holding on to me. Right now, my eyes are closed, so I can't tell what way going on… but the only thing I hoped was to not see something disturbing when I open my eyes. "Hmmm Hmm" "Hmmm Hmm" The chances of that not being true were increasing dangerously. So with the slightest bit of courage that I had, I opened my eyes. ... ... Beautiful … Artistic … God's Creation … I don't know how to describe… her, but words couldn't simply describe the woman-being that my eyes saw. Golden Hair, Vibrant yellow eyes filled with the purest intentions, a face without a mistake, a smile that could stop a war… no, stop any war, and lastly her cleavage… DAMN! ARE THEY HUGE! Coming to this point, the fact that I thought such a thing made me unconsciously feel guilty towards her. To think that a being such as her was gazing at me with such a love-filled gaze, and that one of the first things I did was… think lewdly of her? What is wrong with me!!?? I lowered my gaze in shame and looked away from her. "It's okay." A motherly voice said to me as a warm hand touched my face. Her hands were large, larger than my head, but she was caressing my head as if I were made of some fragile component. Slowly lifting my head, I hear her say, "It's not a sin to think." "Nothing, no being in all of creation is without fault, and neither are you." "But that doesn't mean it's anything bad, simply it makes you more special." Special? "Yes," She nodded, "It's your independent and honest choice of thinking that makes you special from us who only seek to make everything as it should be." "So in that sense, you can say you are much more important than I." Important than her? I didn't feel like that. Somehow, though, I couldn't help but feel giddy hearing her say that. As if I were a child and she my mother, she just complimented me in the most uncomplicated way possible. "So do not doubt what you think. This is a safe place." "You are safe here." Those words unconsciously made me feel more at ease. I don't know how much more when I already felt like this was the safest place there was in the world. Ehh? It was at this moment that I realized a certain special thing. First was I wasn't in the world… or anywhere for that matter. It was someplace distant. I was nowhere; the whole space was white. There weren't any walls or sky, to be exact. I couldn't see anything other than white. Secondly, I swear this isn't my crazy fantasy. I was being cradled by the woman. LITERALLY! Alarm bells rang inside my head as I felt myself heat up just thinking of being in such a situation. It looked like she understood what I was thinking as she laughed. Not in a funny way, but… a happy way. Like she wasn't making fun of me and was just laughing at the situation. Does that make any sense? Because I certainly don't get what was happening. "You don't have to be ashamed of such a thing, I feel glad to have someone like you in my bosom." I smiled at her and finally said my first words since I came here. Then- Thanks… my lad-queen… goddess. Buuut, can you… You know, maybe put me down." Surprisingly, she pouted. "I don't want to do that butt since you asked, I will." Saying that she put me down on the floor…which was made of clouds now that I noticed. "There, and if you want to come back here again, just ask, okay?" I nodded, and even though the offer was excellent, I was not going to do that. Seriously, it was a tough offer to refuse. "Before we continue, do you know where we are?" I looked around again and shook my head. "Do you know what happened to you before you came back?" I tried to think before this, and it took some time before a certain disturbing memory came back to me. The memory of me, clutching my chest, as a heavy feeling suddenly came over me as I was bringing back the food. Then just like that, I fell flat and… died? I looked to her in confirmation as she nodded. ... Somehow, it didn't feel as shocking as I thought it would feel; maybe I had already accepted the fact when I came here. "Do you want to ask something?" I hear her, and many things go through my head before I ask the one meaningful question. "What happens next?" "Your next life happens." "… Rebirth?" She smiled at m,e and this time I felt curious about that. "Not only that, but if you want, I can send you to any world of your choice." "Seriously? Can I ask why?" "It's your reward for the smiles you put upon your fellow friends before you died." I didn't understand what she said, but as if understanding that, she showed me pictures, memories of the employees back at the company, my team members, to be specific. Memories of me helping them out and others before the final thingtheirthem coming to my funeral and saying nice stuff about me and such. Seeing the short but heartfelt memory made me feel very glad, and I had to wipe away tears that came to my eyes. After thinking for a loooong time, I made my choice. "I'm ready." "Well then, tell me where you want to go?" ... ( After a while ) The perfect being was sitting upon her throne as another one, same as her, but smaller, came to her with a worrying look. "Mother" "Yes, angel." "You know the person you had recently sent to a world." "That darling of a boy? What of him?" "You made another mistake." Mother looked at the angel with confusion before being told what she had done. Hearing what she did, the beautiful face of hers paled in horror. "Oh My!"