Chapter 9 Don’t let me down

"Motherfucker you reincarnated me as in a NTR hentai world!!!!" I scream in anger and shock. {old up. Do not misunderstand, I didn`t know either.} "You are lie Author, how the fuck did you not know?" I explained it before already. Besides, Authors frequently make up stories and plot on the spot without any planning. Ever heard of pantsers?} "Don`t try to change the subject. You said you reincarnated me!! You can`t possibly just fling me across space and time and hope that I land in some world. You must`ve made a plan, so there is no way you don`t know this beforehand." I say, accusing him. {...} Wait, why is he so silent? ? "Don`t tell me you flung me across space and time in hopes that I land in some world." {...no?} That`s more yes than any 'yes' will ever be. The yesest yes. "What the fuck bro?" I say, shocked. Maybe betrayed. {What, you turned out fine, right?} What kind of a fucking useless Author do I have? Shaking those thoughts away, ay I return to the situation. My girlfriend is very likely to cheat on me and become some sexual object for a bad boy. Oh god, I hope not. {Me too.} 'What does this have to do with you?' Are you kidding? This book will be in the dumps if you were NTRed. I would argue that I will have it worse.} Hmm. Made sense, no one wants to read a story with NTR. People project themselves onto the story, and they hated it when MC got cheated on; it felt too relatable. {Yup. So we have to do everything in our power to stop this.} Hmm. Good. I remember the doujin, but it would do best to read it again. I look at my phone and tap on the read button. ---__---__---__--- [Skip if you have read the manga. This is a vague summary of the douji.] The doujin started with a couple going on a date happily. They were a happy couple that had known each other for a long time, and they had dated for six whole months. But the main character is a very shy boy, and even though they have dated for six months, he has not done anything for his girlfriend. At the end of the date, though, the main character worked up courage and they finally shared their first kiss. They were in an amusement park, and the sun was setting when they kissed. 'Go,d I don`t like how this is familiar.' The date ended, and the couple went on their way with a joyful smile. The next day, though, while the girl, who is almost identical to Tsukimi, waited for her boyfriend, someone came instead. It was a man with well well-built body and blonde hair with an ugly haircut. Though I have to give it to him, he doesn`t look bad. Especially compared to the ugly bastard usually found in other NTR. The school they went to is extremely strict and didn`t even allow dating, so the blonde guy blackmailed her with the photo of her and the MC kissing at the end of their date. He also threatened that her boyfriend would be kicked out of the football club, which was his greatest passion. The girl,, was feeling bad and scared for her boyfriend, decided to accept what the guy asked for. To be his girlfriend for a single day. After school, they went on a date where the guy continuously molested the girl. Then, at the end, they go to a love hotel, and the guy has sex with her. She thought it ended there, but one week later, the guy came back, and this time, with another blackmail material, which was the video of them having sex in the love hotel. Then the girl falls deeper and deeper into the clutches of the guy. The fucked up thing about all of it was that the MC and her continued the relationship. The guy fucked her behind he MC`s back and fucked her even when they were going on a date. The thing goes on and on for a while,,e and the guy does every degrading thing to the girl. From costume to toys and anal. He thoroughly defiled every inch of her body. Then, finally, seemingly losing interest in her body, he stopped having sex with her. The girl was delighted, and the MC and she continued their relationship. Their love grew, and she thought it was perfect. But then, as their love developed, they finally had sex. But the MC was a minute man with a needle cock. She was not satisfied. She felt guilty and sad. She felt dirty and disgusted. Thinking that it was her curse for cheating on him. She cannot enjoy doing it with him, with someone she loves with all her heart. Her curse started, and she feels sexually frustrated. Until she can`t take it anymore and goes back to the guy who blackmailed her. Then soon that developed into a normal dynamic of their relationship. Where she is still very much in love with the MC and even continue to please him sexually but she still fucks the guy for her sexual relief. It was like her heart belonged to the MC, but her body belonged to another person. Even at the end, when the guy claims that he loves her and she should just be his girlfriend, rejectscted asayssay that she loves the MC. In the end, she tells herself thatit'ss fine even if her body belongs to another person. She would never betray the MC because she loves him so much. She claims that no matter what, the MC was her number 1. I feel my stomach churn. Even if it has not happened, reading about your girlfriend being fucked is not easy. The ultimate emotional damage. "I`m going to throw u," I say, covering my mouth. Go ahead, I am doing the same thing.} I breathe out heavily as I lie on my bed. Feeling conflicted. I don`t know how to feel. Many things are different now. I am the main character, and I am not the same shy MC as in the doujin, and I am way better too. This was just something that could happen. Like a multiverse or something. Everything could be different this time. But I am not feeling secure... I tap on my phone and search for some things on Google. (How to dispose of a corpse.) (Best poison that can be bought legally in Japan.) (Worst ways to die.) (Can a man survive his dick being cut off and his balls crushed.) {Maybe lets not go there...} the Author says nervously. "What? I am just...looking. I search up weird shit all the time." I continue my search. I was determined to acquire the knowledge I sought. (Biggest dildo a man can take without dying too soon.) (How to make a horse fuck a dude without dying.) {Really, stop it!!} the Author says, he sounds scared We know violence is never the best solution.} 'It is a solution, though.' I retort. {...fair enough. But we both know this is meaningless.} I sigh and close my eyes. He is right. It won`t matter if I kill him, except that it will bring me the ultimate satisfaction. If Tsukimi can be blackmailed and if she can cheat with him, who is to say that she cannot do it with the others as well?. We need to go and fix the root of the problem, which is Tsukimi. In the end, that is who we need to fix. I wonder if her actions will be the same with me around. I want to know if she would act differently with me as her boyfriend. I hope so. Or else I might cry. "Hah~ I guess we will find out soon enough," I said, and the Author hummed. "Why the fuck do I have to pick an NTR girl as my girlfriend? Now I am in some deep shit." I mutter. I think back on the time I spent with her. We have known each other since elementary school. She used to be fat when she was a child, causing others to bully her. She would always seek my help when things like that happened. We may have dated only for a mmonthmonth feelings for her go way beyond that. If she did cheat on me. I don't know what I will do. Which scares me. I have always known what to do since I reincarnated. "Don't let me down, Ta ukimi."