Chapter 5: All of that is just a virgin’s delusion

I was sitting up straight whilst rubbing my swelling, red cheek, and Lili was glaring at me. I probably don’t need to say it, but I just got slapped. 「In other words, you don’t want to be laughed at for being a virgin and terrible at sex, so you want to practice with Lili, is that right?」 「….. Aren’t you forgetting to add “devi” to the end of your sentences again?」 「Shut up. Just answer the question.」 「Yes…. To put it in plain terms… Well,, that’s about right.」 「……I’ll kill you.」 Lili shows an unexpected amount of anger, and I draw back instinctively. 「W-wait a minute! Lili is also partly to blame. Wearing something like that around all the time, people would think that about you! Or more like, aren’t you a demon? Do you care about chastity issues?」 「Lili is a woman before she is a demon! If you tell me that you want to practice on me to have sex with another,l.. how can I put it…. You are an idiot!」 I was at a loss for words, but what she said makes sense. 「But didn’t you tell me that you would cooperate with me to increase the overall magic prowess of the demon world?」 「Guu…. I did say that but…」 「I mean, come on, Lili is also extremely cute and wants to do it with a cute girl for my first time.」 「Eh, I-I am cute? You think? ehehe.」 Eh? Somehow this is an unexpected reaction. Don’t tell me Lili is weak to compliments…. 「That’s right. Therefore, you know!」 「Yeah, okay…. Is that what you think I would say?! Idiot!」 「It failed,, huh….」 Seeing my dejected appearance, Libreathedhes let out a long sigh. 「Geez…. Just when I thought you were becoming more eager, it always comes to this. After kidnapping a girl, all the boys can think of is how to do ecchi things with them…. A,hhh I’ve had enough of this, this is the worst!」 「Well, you know I think it's too much to just kill, her right?」 「What do you meIsn’tsn’t it way better to just kill her only? nly.」 「Y-You… is that all you demons are about?」 「Don’t assume about us, demons!」 「In any case! I have no intentions of killing her, okay!」 「Muu…..」 Lili’s cheeks are swollen. The fact that I didn’t choose to murder Kurosawa-san is something that Lili seems to feel dissatisfied about. Her outer appearance is really cute, but when she gets a, her inner self is not cute at all. 「So if I don’t kill her, I will have to release her at some,, stage righSo? So I need to figure out a way to silence her. In that case, wouldn’t it be better if I could do ecchi things to her and make her fall in love with me and make her listen to my commands…?」 「Are you stupid?」 Lili looks right at me and focuses. 「Th-Then how about this! Don’t you have some sort of magic that would turn her into my slave or something?」 「Mag, ic you say?」 She makes a scoff and laughs through her nose. 「This isn’t a manga.」 「Coming from you!?」 「I will tell you this, now, but! Things like using magic, hypnotism, or having great enough sex that you would be able to make the girl fall in love with you and do your bidding, those kinds of things! All of that is just a virgin's delusions.」 「What!? How dare you break a boy’s dream with such harsh words!」 「It is the truth.」 「You’re so mean…. Damnit! Shittt!」 When I started to bang my head fists against the floor in zealous frustration, she put her index finger in front of me, clicked her tongue “Tsk, tsk tsk”. Seriously, she is kind of annoying. But she’s still cute. It is quite aggravating. 「You are jumping to the wrong conclusion. Did you not realize it? There is something I haven’t said in the things I listed」 「Eh.. What is it?」 「Brainwashing」 「BraiBrainwashingng? Is brainwashing the same thing as hypnotism?」 「That’s not right. Baka.」 When I showed an indignant expression on my face, she acted like she was all high and mighty as she thrust her nose up and began to explain. 「 Alright, ht listen up okay? The common sense of you humans is something that is not absolute. For example, ideologies like food shouldn’t be wasted, people should be kind, friends should be treasured, all of these teachings are things you humans learn when you were young, and that is what becomes your common sense. Do you understand? If you can destroy and tear down that common sense, you can plant a suggestion that is convenient for you to replace it. That is what brainwashing is.」 「Uwah… That sounds super difficult.」 「Of course, it is difficult. But the thing brainwashing is one of our’ ’s pastime party tricks. It is the thing we do best. What do you think? if it’s this, I’m not teaching each. you」 「Really?! T-then certainly please do! Lili-sensei!」 「Teacher? Nfuh, you are calling me sensei now, huh? Well, we don’t have time to let'se, let's be Spartan, Spartan train… Devi!」 Suddenly remembering about it, she began to add devi to the end of her sentences again. She has recovered her mood a little. Just like that, under the guidance of Lili-se,nsei, I began construction of the Kurosawa-san brainwash program. 「I am hungry…」 I tried to use my voice to say this. Of course, there was no one to reply to my words. 「I want to eat fried chicken and also manju’s. I also want to eat a strawberry cake. I want to eat potato chips and drink milk tea….」 I want that. I want to eat this, the more I think ab,, out it, the more it becomes difficult it becomes and gradually I feel like I want to cry. Guu… *stomach rumbles*… In the middle of the night,ight the sounds of my stokeep keep echoing. When that disgusting man left some water for me to drink, my thirst subsided,d bue with it came a craving for food, and the hunger pangs became unbearable. (How long has it been since I ate anything?) The last thing I could remember was eating a croissant and salad for breakfast. I am now regretting the fact that I refused it when my Mama offered to cook me a fried egg. Eve, so…. compared to before I drank water, this is still a lot better. I heard that if you have water, it isn’t easy to starve to death, and that seems to be the truth. I have this modelling friend who used to do a fasting diet, so I think that I should be fine… at least for now. I can’t remember the exact date we a,,e in because I’ve been in this pitch dark room, I can’t even tell whether it is daytinighttimet time. My physical condition is the worst. I can’t think of anything other than food, and my energy levels are horrible. My stomach hurts aI I feel sick. Moreover, I feel like my head falls, y hot like I have, which makes me hazy. 「Haa….」 I can only breathe out a sigh. Still holding on to the water bottle, I lie down. The sound of water drips. I can feel the sensation of the water inside the bottle shaking. I need to portion the water. Even though I wanted to pour the water, only 1/3 of the water remains in the bottle. Adding to the fact…. I still have no awareness of the situation outside. I don’t know where I am, there are no windows, and even when I place my ears against the wall, I can’t hear anything. Whensmartphonehone battery ran out, I got angry and broke my phone. There is no way I can ask for outside help. 「To think that this is a room made from the power of demons…」 I still think that it is a lie. A lie just scared. The only thing I know for sure is that disgusting man has confined me in this room. I never thought that someone like him would even have the courage to do this type of thing. Even though I was on the brink of death, to think that I would have to beg for forgiveness to such a guy, poor me. Saying so myself, I am a beautiful model girl, you know? A performer… Even if you collect 100 ordinary people, I would still be worth more than they are. The world is so unjust. T, truly, I am so pitiful… Even so.. “I will let you do me!” When I remember the words that I said to him, my feet and hands just want to kick and struggle. (Ahhhhhhhhh! Why did I say such a thing!? To be honest, that type of pedo does not qualify to even touch my hair!) Of course, I must be delusional. I was just so thirsty and my throat was so dry and hurting that I just wanted some water. If his goal was to do ecchi things to me, I just wanted him to get it over and done with and give me water to drink. When I started this line of thinking, the words just came out of my mouth reflexively. 「I want to die….」 No, that’s a lie, I don’t want to die. But the amount of self-loathing I have for myself is amazing. Mn 'sn's muttering voice stops echoing, and the room once again returns to a painful silence. At, I was feeling angry and frustrated, and I continued to kick the wall and shout and scream. H, once the battery on my phone died, I started to feel uneasy. In the pitch-dark room, nothing besides the sound of my rumbling stomach could be heard. That’s the only sound in this room. I don’t think I have ever been afraid of being with myself until today. T, hat’s why even thoeally didn’t want to feel this, but when that disgusting man came into the room, I honestly felt a bit of relief. 「 Why try to kill me…? I think he wouldn’t go that far, right?」 The reason I am speaking like thithatcause my sense of reality is starting to go out of whack. However, if he didn’t give me any water, I might have already died at the time, nd if I can’t eat anything, then it may be possible to die someday. Since that disgusting male left, I wonder how long it has been? It might be weird to say this, but even if it is him, I can’t wait for someone to come back…. Noticing what I was thinking, I started to shake my head to get rid of such thoughts. This isn’t right. It’s not like I wanted to meet him. Inside this pitch-dark room, it’s just that my mentality has weakened, and it's just really hard… that’s why.. It’s just that if that man doesn’t com,e comem back then II'm not going home either. “I have no interest in bitches”. He did say something l i that,t, but somehow it also irritated me to hear it. Who does he think I am? Having no interest in someone like me, it’s a bluff on his part. I wanted to avoid it at all costs, but if there is a chance that I can get out of herally thought that I could do something for myself, just this once. It’s a lot better than dying. Of course, the moment I got out, I would let the police know about it. Even if I had to do something ecchi, it wouldn’t be the first time I did it. Last week, I already gave myself to Jun-kun. My initial experience was a painful event, though er I also felt warm, kind, and fluffy happy. Therefore, even if something i,s done, it isn’t as big a deal. I can just think of it like a stray dog biting me. Apart from that, not being able to meet with Jun-kun gives me this unbearable feeling. I trace the brand logo ring finger that Jun-kun gave me as a present, whilst closing my eyes. 「Jun-kun…. I want to meet you.」 「Okay-devi, it’s perfect-devi!」 I have been learning the brainwashing program since Saturday morning, and she was in the middle of teaching. It was only six o’clock on Sunday the next morning that it all ended. 「Will it be okay with just something like this?」 「Ahh! You don’t believe in me-devi? This is akin to teaching a itsimannersdevi. It’s what I like to call the carrot and the stick. Anyways, the first step is to make them feel scared, if you go easy on them, it won't work- Devi!」 「But… asexpectede, I daily agree with violence…」 「You can just use a light amount of force-devi. After all, she would be close to dying from hunger anyway 「 Well, that is also true. She has only drunk water in the last three days. If I don't watch, she might.」 「But three days is the perfect amount of time.」 「How so?」 「This is about the time that her mental barriers collapse 「What’s that?」 「To explain it in simple terms, let’s see-devi.. It’s like gasoline-devi. If the human body doesn’t eat anything, the brain, which requires glucose to work, i I s used up, and it starts to produce an alternative to substitute for the required glucose.」 「Alternatisubstancesces?」 「That’s right. Something to replace it. The alternative materials are going to be highest 72 hours after the fact. In other words, it will peak on the day of the week. During these few days, the mind will become shaky, She should drop to about the intelligence of someone drunk.」 「I see.」 Lili seemed like a silly girl, but when it comes to this topic knowledgeable, which is surprising. The demon race must do this type of therapy. 「At any rate, the first thing is a test of strength. From here on, you should sleep and get some rest. When you wake up, you should begin development.」 Saying that Lili gives me a thumbs up! 「 With this, you will be able to graduate from being a virgin-devi!」