I am very exhausted from my life, I always had a bad day full of loneliness... I don't have siblings I am the only daughter of my father- James Gomez and mother- Selena Gomez, i am a catholic and I love the time when I have my secret talks only with Jesus, My life is very boring. I am 18, but still, I don't have a boyfriend, as far as I know, because I have a curvy figure; that is the reason why boys don't like me, they always want girls with slim and sexy figures. And that I am not at all. I am a kind of shy girl, except for girls, I never had a guy friend, and all the men in my life are never very caring or great to me, I don't have any brothers, and my uncle is gross! And my father... he was always busy with his work when I was small... and now also he is the same, I had never experienced a father-daughter relationship as my father is not frank he is very strict, so, I had never shared anything about my life with him and my mother, she is sweet, and sometimes I share her my secrets but many times I couldn't :( As she is not my age I am sometimes uncomfortable with her sharing some secrets... She is a high school teacher so she is always busy with her work, I hardly get time to spend with my parents, and my mother always tries to push me to better studies, so she always restricts me from many things like- not being on social media, or to have short dresses, or to spend nights in a friend's house, or to have parties, or to spend time on the phone:( etc, etc, etc... And I don't have any best friend with whom I could share my life's problems and loneliness or have a party with, so, the conclusion is I am fucking alone in my life and frankly speaking I had never experienced how good friends are like how a boy cares and loves a girl when someone is in a relationship..... Anyways, today I am thinking too much, I am fed up with my life, shrugged my thoughts about my miserable life, and realized the time, it was 100 p.m. I had to go for dinner, so I went upstairs near the dining room the table where Mom and Dad were already eating... Many times I eat alone or last, as I am always busy with my studies, so they never disturb me ... anyway, I sat down and finished my dinner. Every night I had the same routine every day, so I went to bed again, to relax my mmin d I always used to read some story books, mainly fictional or fantasy stories about werewolves, vampires, and devils etc. etc. I don't know whether they exist in real life or not but I just love to read this kind of stories before going to sleep, but today I Have to spend less time on this, as tomorrow I have to wake up early, for my new college, truly speaking iIam least interested or excited to go, as I know I would be staying whole day alone and bored as I don't think I could be able to make friends.... for me it is a kind of very difficult job to make friends, I am very shy in this stuffs of making new friends or socializing with new peoples it sucks!,(kind of introvert you can say me)*sigh* But I have to go to college for getting my degrees:( so, after finishing 1 page of my story which I was reading I went asleep...