Chapter 7: He lacks control

Some say I am bipolar, but for her, I am everything she would ever want me to be. It took so long to be with her, and I can’t let her go now. She will learn to love me for who I am. Her scent lingered in the room. I placed my hand on her pillow, softly touching the hair that rested on it. She looked so peaceful sleeping, and my hand moved to my face, caressing it. I have no idea what I will do if she wakes up and sees me sitting beside her like a creep. I hate the fact I yelled at her today but I couldn’t control my emotions when she released my prisoner, she is just a good person like Ares says, a good girl that sees the good in everyone that is why she tried to help the little boy, I will still be speaking to her about meddling in my work, I don’t want to hurt her and I don’t want anyone to try to hurt her. I still remember how she looked at me with fear in her eyes. I didn’t want her to fear me yet. A smile crept through my face when she let out a cute sneeze. I whispered a "bless you" before leaning in to press a kiss on her forehead. I noticed as she snuggled more into the pillow. I know it has been a long night, but she shouldn’t have heard those growls or screams that will only make her think I am a terrible person. I wanted her to love me and care for me, I want to be able to love her back and take care of her, I want her to fear me but yet have unconditional love for me. She is everything I ever wanted in a woman, and now I have her here with me. It took a while to make her mine, but now I won’t be letting her go. I was happy to know she rejected her mate, and now she will belong to me. I stand up, taking off my clothes and getting into bed with her. I know she won’t wake up, not just yet, because of the water she drank; there was something in it to make her sleep. I wrap my hands around my waist, bringing her closer to me; her scent fills my nostrils, and I smile. Her presence alone makes me lose my grip on reality; it makes me lose control. I will have the whole of her to me very room, having her closer to me, it has always been what I wanted. She is the air I breathe; she has no idea how much control she has over the alpha. I still remember the first day I saw her; it was a year ago. She looked breathtaking, and after a long year, she is mine. I slept like a baby the whole night. I woke up early to leave. I won’t want her to freak out when she wakes up. I lay another kiss on her forehead before leaving. I walk past her room, and I instantly stop in my tracks, swirling around to walk back to her room. I opened the door, and everything looked back to normal. It was no longer destroyed; the men did a great job in taking care of my mess. Last night was a different kind of outburst I had. As an Alpha, I am meant to be perfect, but I was not. I had some flaws that no one can know about; they are my weaknesses, and they will never be known my the mere people of the world. That flaw destroyed her room. I’m glad Ares kept her safe. I know by the time she wakes up, she will be curious about what happened last night, a wolf attacked us, she can’t know it is me, I still have to win her trust and get her to fall in love with me, and I know I can’t do that if she is afraid of me. I walk into my room, take a quick shower, and change into a suit. I let out a breath, calming my wolf; he wanted to be out. We have a meeting, we can play wolf later. My wolf, Alexander, as I call him, is the strongest wolf in the city. I was chosen to be the next alpha by the king and moon goddess. No one believed in me. I was seen as a kid who couldn’t take care of himself, but I showed shame to them shame. I prove my worth to them, and now I repay them with wickedness; they deserve to be treated that way. I recall my father, who always told me. The subjects are meant to be treated badly, or else they will never grow to respect me, and I redeemed myself; I got each one of them to respect me. Ares stood beside my desk. He had a serious look on his face man who never smiles unless we are alone. "Why are we having this meeting at home?"I asked. "It’s a last-minute meeting," Ares says, and I nod. I don’t want any of the Betas to see my queen. I know seeing so many people will make her uncomfortable, and I don’t want that, so Ares set up the meeting early in the morning before she wakes up. "They heard about Conrad," Ares says. "What about her ex-husband?" I ask annoyingly. I don’t want to hear his name called in this room, Ares told me how much her heart was broken when she found out what her husband did. She should not have trusted the business-minded man. "Divorce, he told everyone, he divorced her," I asked. "And what does it have to do with me?" I ask. I was clearly not interested in this conversation. "She is with you, Alpha. The Betas won’t like it," Ares said. "They may as well die for all I care. No one can tell him ot to be with him. She stays with me forever, and I am willing to burn every wolf to stay with her," I say. "Calm down, Alph," Ares says. He knows how much she means to me; he knows I have a reason for wanting to be with her.